Vapor

by Jenny LaJoye

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released May 13, 2015

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Track Name: Like This
You can take my hands
And hold them
You can take my breath
And hide it
You can take my heart
And keep it

Oh, you’ve left me speechless
Oh, you’ve left me like this

You can take my mind
And change it
You can take my past
And forgive it
You can take my heart
And break it

Oh, you’ve left me speechless
Oh, you’ve left me like this
Track Name: Blue Skies
When it rains, then it pours
The beauty hurts, the silence starts to roar
You can't look up, you can't look down
until your feet are safely on the ground

Where's the silver lining this time?

Blue skies are coming 'round again.
Blue skies are coming 'round again
Whoa

How to speak, how to move
How to live without the thought of you
First it rains, then it pours
The skies are dark, but sleep means fighting wars

Where's the silver lining this time?

Blue skies are coming 'round again.
Blue skies are coming 'round again
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa

First it rains, then it pours
The skies are dark, but sleep means fighting wars
Blue skies are coming 'round again.
Whoa
Track Name: At the Very Least
I sat there like an artist all night,
on the floor with every single brilliant color I could find,
and I chose all of the ones that caught my eye,
just a blank white sheet of paper and a million scribbled lines

When I was done, I ran for miles
to try to find the sunset of child

If no one is around,
and it's only you
to hear me make a sound,
I need you on the ground,
and I need you to be proud,
at the very least
when no one is around

He stood there in a sandbox all day
In the dirt, exploring every stunning word that he could say
And he molded all the mud like it was clay
Just a muddy world of all the muddy people he could make

When he was done, he stood and smiled
and marveled at the sunset of a child

If no one is around,
and it's only you
to hear me make a sound,
I need you on the ground,
and I need you to be proud,
at the very least
when no one is around

At the very least, feel free
To run and find
Find the sunset of the child
You’d never hide

If no one is around,
and it's only you
to hear me make a sound,
I need you on the ground,
and I need you to be proud,
at the very least
when no one is around
Track Name: Show Me Out
Thank you for your time, but I can go
Thank you for your kindness, but I know
I’m really sorry - I never cared for tea
Sorry for coming. I think I’ll leave.

If it’s not too much to ask,

Show me
Show me
Show me out
Show me
Show me
Show me out

It’s kind of funny, driving in your car
It’s kind of funny, playing your guitar
Thank you for lending me your living room
The only thing that’s missing here is you

If it’s not too much to ask

Show me
Show me
Show me out
Show me
Show me
Show me out

If you want me gone,
Show me the door
Show me the door
If you want me gone,
Show me the door
Show me the door

Thank you for your time, but I can go
Thank you for your kindness, but I know
I’m really sorry - I never cared for tea
Sorry for coming,
Sorry for coming,
Sorry for coming. I think I’ll leave.
Track Name: Wipe Your Feet
So this is what you wanted
What you were going for
The waterworks have started
My heart is on the floor

What will come round next,
wipe its feet on it?
This is quite some test

Oh, ask me
what it is I’m fighting for
another broken heart,
Another painful scar

You have me
hanging on for one round more
I will be a threat
Wipe your feet on that

See those broken pieces?
Just step on them again.
And put them in this hole here.
I‘m not over it.

What will come round next,
wipe its feet on me?
This is quite some test

Oh, ask me
what it is I’m fighting for
another broken heart,
Another painful scar

You have me
hanging on for one round more
I will be a threat
Wipe your feet on that

Holding Back
Holding on
I’m not gone

Oh, ask me
what it is I’m fighting for
another broken heart,
Another painful scar

You have me
hanging on for one round more
I will be a threat
Wipe your feet on that

I will be a threat
Wipe your feet on that
Track Name: To the People
I’m talking to the people who have never been a Cinderella, never had an interest in attending a ball.
To the people who appear to be a hero when in their reality they’re almost always standing 2 feet small.

If it’s you, why don’t you come in close, tell me everything, tell me bout your dreams that broke
Tell me who thinks you’re a joke

Come out from your hiding place.
You will hate being safe
I know you like yesterday
You will make
a way

I’m talking to the people who are bored because they’d rather make a story than be captive in one already told.
To the people who are worried that they’ll never be enough because they’re only really tough when they pretend to be old.

If it’s you, why don’t you come in close, sit right at my feet, listen to my dreams that broke
Tell me I’m not just a joke

Come out from your hiding place.
You will hate being safe
I know you like yesterday
You will make
a way
Track Name: Cheat Away
Come out,
and play by the rules
Begin
with me and you

'Cause I am walking
on ground that's falling apart
right under my feet
And last I checked
it was safe to stand here
but you decided to cheat away the words that I thought served as solid ground.

Come out
from under that cave
Look into
all I have saved

'Cause I am walking
on ground that's falling apart
right under my feet
And last I checked
it was safe to stand here
but you decided to cheat away the words that I thought served as solid ground.

Cheat away the words that I thought served as solid ground
Cheat away the words that I thought served as solid ground
Cheat away the words that I thought served as solid ground

Cause I am walking
on ground that's falling apart
right under my feet
And last I checked
it was safe to stand here
but you decided to cheat away the words that I thought served as solid ground.
Cheat away the words that I thought served as solid ground
Cheat away the words that I thought served as solid ground
Track Name: Take Another Swing
You look so brave
Under the shade
I was afraid
That you’d forget to hate that I am fading fast

You’ve been set free
Out in the trees
I hate the breeze
For coming in between

Take another swing
Take another swing at both my knees
Take another swing
Take another swing from all your trees

You look so mean
Smiling through me
You won’t come clean
A complicated scene, a complicated need

Take another swing
Take another swing at both my knees
Take another swing
Take another swing from all your trees

Did you wake up in the river?
Did you wash away all the pain?
Did you find love in the river?
Did you know right then?
Did you know again?
Again
Again
Again
Track Name: I Don't Think That Counts
I hear that you’re sorry again for the wait –
for cancelling when you were already late.
I hear that you’re sorry for pulling me in –
for making me think that we could ever win.
I wish I could get these damn hands to let go.
I hear that you’re sorry, but I’m making you choke

I don’t think that counts.
I don’t think that counts.
I don’t think that counts,
anymore

Can we please just go back to the first time you cried?
To the night I thought holding you might dry your eyes
To the time when “I love you” meant more than a lie
To the time that I gave all I had just to try

I hear that you’re standing your ground once again –
that you gave me everything you ever had.
I hear that you still stand by all that you said –
that throwing me Jesus is being my friend.
I wish I could blame this whole thing on my hands,
but you’ve done that already, like you understand

I don’t think that counts.
I don’t think that counts.
I don’t think that counts,
anymore

Can we please just go back to the first time you cried?
To the night I thought holding you might dry your eyes
To the time when “I love you” meant more than a lie
To the time that I gave all I had just to try

You never gave all you had just to try.

I don’t think that counts.
I don’t think that counts.
I don’t think that counts,
anymore

I don’t think that counts.
I don’t think that counts.
I don’t think that counts,
anymore
Track Name: End of Your Rope
I always roam
Back to my home
The one that you built me with walls and a roof
You always say
When I’m away
I can just follow this line back to you
And when I can’t find you,
I’ll always be tied to the end of your rope

Sometimes you gaze
Into a haze
The harder I pull you, the further you seem
I turn away
Praying you’ll stay
Hoping you’ll tend to your slave when you leave
Don’t catch me trying
To loosen these ties at the end of your rope

Why can’t you say it, say the words, say what you know you want to say to me
Why can’t you say it, say the thing, say what you know is gonna make me bleed
Why can’t you say you won’t be needing me
Like I need you?

You’ve always loved
Running above
Circles and cycles and high-flying feats
Someday, come down
Won’t you come down?
Someday, you’ll wonder what happened to me
Don’t look behind you,
‘Cause I won’t be tied to the end of your rope

Believe me, I tried to
But I can’t be tied to the end of your rope
Track Name: Vapor
I can hear the silence now
Ringing through your waiting
I can feel the words fall out
My defenses fading

I can feel the warmth of lying in your arms
I was always cold
You just keep believing that our moment’s never done
I’ll just hold onto what it was
It was everything

Take care of it
Don’t let it fall
Don’t let it break
Don’t hear it calling out for air. Just hold it closer.
Don’t let it live
Cuz it might die
Pretend that you
can’t hear it cry
We are grasping at vapor

I can feel the winter tears
Freezing as they’re falling
I can feel the red-hot fears
Burning through your mouth and through our silly silver lining

I can feel your heavy breathing next to me
I could never sleep
You just keep believing that our moment’s never done
I’ll just hold onto what it was
It was everything

Take care of it
Don’t let it fall
Don’t let it break
Don’t hear it calling out for air. Just hold it closer.
Don’t let it live
Cuz it might die
Pretend that you
can’t hear it cry
We are grasping at vapor

One moment lost, the next I’m found
One moment found, the next I’m lost
One moment here, the next you’re gone

Take care of me
Let me fall
Let me break
Hear me calling out for air, and let me go
Let me live
I just might die
Don’t pretend
that you can’t hear me cry.
We are grasping at vapor
We are gasping for air
We are breathing barely
Track Name: Breathe
Teach these clumsy limbs how to dance
Show this tattered heart fine romance
Melt away the ice and break the stone
Speak aloud the words we’ve left alone

Breathe
Breathe into the dust
Breathe hope, Breathe trust
Breathe life into this
Dust
Dust
Dust
Rise and Breathe


Hold this withered grass in your hands
Rain upon this dry and dying land
Calm the storm that’s threatening to break
Shake this sleeping spirit awake

Breathe
Breathe into the dust
Breathe hope, Breathe trust
Breathe life into this
Dust
Dust
Dust

Rise up and breathe
Rise up and breathe
Rise up and...
Rise up and breathe

Rise up and breathe
Rise up and breathe
Rise up and breathe

Breathe
Breathe into the dust
Breathe hope, Breathe trust
Breathe life into this
Dust

Breathe
Breathe hope, Breathe trust
Breathe life into this
Dust
Dust
Dust
Rise and Breathe
Track Name: After Goodbye
We drove around it seven times
We gave it all your words plus mine
I told you I’ve got no more fight
I’m fine
Goodbye

I guess I was surprised
I guess I need more time
I guess I miss you more
After goodbye

You shot me somewhere – I can tell
You sewed the bullet in, as well
You seem so worried that I fell
I’m fine
Goodbye

I guess I was surprised
I guess I need more time
I guess I miss you more
After goodbye

I guess I was surprised
I guess it was your eyes
I guess I’ll love you long
After goodbye